15 Things I have Realised in the Past Week

I have not had the greatest week (as many of you may know), that's for sure. But I've learned a lot of things, some deep, some superficial...

1) Actual, honest to god heartbreak REALLY fucking hurts.

2) It's plain douche-y to dump someone the night before a Physics exam

3) Brownies are possibly a form of crack

4) Pizzahut is actually very delish

5) UFC is fun, and Cheick Kongo is a sexy beast of a man.

6) Kamloops has a comic book store

7) Its DANGEROUSLY easy to spend money in said comic book store

8) It's a tad embaressing to ask at the counter for any Startrek mangas

9) Its more embaressing to specify that you want that one "with the borg origins and stuff"

10) Its even more embaressing to except your huge nerd/geekary and BUY IT.

11) I still have Sonic 2 Sega skillz

12) Robot Sonic is NOTHING to the end guy.

13) Bamboo shirts are effing comfy

14) No amount of pain can keep me off of Puzzle Pirates

15) Dog the Bounty Hunter is the fucking man!

AND the song of the day, which I haven't really been keeping up with but want to add to this post anyways?

THERE IS MORE THEN ONE.

New Noise - Refused ...It's awesome punky-metaly sweetness.

Building a Religion - Cake ...freaking weird in the best way ever.

If anyone is wondering I got these songs off a guy named Devon. The same one that my Aunt and Grandma are trying to set me up with.

Akward.

Well he has good taste in music...Aunt/Grandma Team -- 1, Team Kirsten -- 0

inhuman

I
am
pretty
much
destroyed.

I told everyone that I was ok. I think that might be a lie. Truth is, I'm so upset, so very upset.
I wish that I could have prevented this somehow. Maybe I could have, maybe not. I guess it doesn't make a difference at this point.
I mean, I always wondered what it was like to be single again, it had been so long since I had been single at all. Ontop of sadness, is this fear, like I don't know what to do with myself, especially around guys. Its like, flirting a bit is ok, but then I just think of him.

Like when I'm busy, I'm ok, but as soon as my mind isn't occupied I just crumble. Like right now...I was ok most of the day but I got home from a study group and I saw that he had taken me out of his facebook page. It's sad that in this day and age facebook is involved in this but its true. I just...can't handle all the girls rushing to console him, his mother telling him to call and what is the scarist thing is the relationship status: single.

I kind of feel like a part of person right now...like I can just watch from the sidelines while life does its thing. I know that I have responsibilities, I have school work that I can't ignore, but I want to just drift. And I want a hug. And I want someone's shoulder to cry on, instead of my questionably clean blanket and tissues. I want to talk to my mom but I have nothing to say about it. And I am trying to convince myself that I'm too old to just call my mother and cry over the phone. Kind of expensive anyways.

Its like being in a pit. Its dark and scary and I know that eventually, someone is going to throw a rope down to me but how long until this proverbial rescue?

3 days?
9 weeks?

Who knows. Ihope sooner rather then later but right now I have to distract myself. I need my eyes to go back to their normal state before I can go get dinner. I don't really want my roommates to see how upset I actually am.

Peace folkies. I hope your weekend was better then mine.